The Search Within...

On one side I see the luscious green,
The other side there is this deserted land..
From childhood insanity to being serene,
The humble desire of living life grand..

The school, the fun, the joyous bus ride,
Had it all disappeared into thin air?..
Enemies few, more friends by my side,
Did I have friends now - I questioned myself where?..

Was it all bound to have happened?
What should I say to thee..
My spirits once high - now stood dampened,
Had my desire to grow made them flee?

I searched for peace, I thought about content,
But those were just moments - I was too busy..
Time passed by, now I sit and repent,
What I looked for all my life - was always within me !!